Personal chronicles. Notes from the desk where the work happens. Reading, writing, body, and the small details that turn out to be structural.
“A person needs to be solved, and if you solve him for a long time, you will love him..” — F. M. Dostoevsky (translated echo)“Memory is not a warehouse; it is a workshop.” — after F. C. Bartlett One day,…
This article examines cogito ergo sum not as a historical philosophical claim, but as an irreducible cognitive operation that removes external guarantees of truth. The text analyzes: René Descartes and the method of doubt “Clear and distinct ideas” as a…
0. Confession It took me far too many years to notice something obvious: In any room where someone “speaks” and someone “listens”,it is not the one on stage who holds the room.It is the one who hasn’t yet looked away….
November 10, 2025At night the cat tore out Num Lock and the “Я” key, opened Substack, and typed “345k63ffffff752.” GPT calmly kept thinking for me.It turned out my ego now lives in the cat’s stomach, my will wanders somewhere between…
A clear, unsentimental piece about the “promised — not given” state every creator knows: the drop after effort, the hunger for confirmation, the quiet way through — and why meaning needs a witness. how to handle creative disappointment; waiting for…
The Return Invasion of the Slip-Ons Recently, I heard the word slip-ons. Thought it was a fungus. Or maybe a new supplement for joints. Googled it. Turns out, it’s footwear. No laces. No challenge. No memory. When Shoes Had Sharp…
A quiet manual for the invisible moments —where silence thickens, time loses shape, and the room starts to remember you. We teach a child not to sit alone. “Go play with others. Don’t sit in the corner. Go talk.” We…
🪶 Introduction Sometimes it seems to me that people are just different planets. On some, everything revolves around guilt, on others — around logic, and on mine there is a cat. She’s full of cream and is sitting on the…
We teach children to lose kindly —and then punish adults who do the same.This is a guide for those who still flinch before winning. We teach a child to be good. “Don’t argue. Don’t shout. Let him go first.” We…
When your call keeps you from being found When my cat fell from the balcony, I did everything I could to find her:I ran, I shouted, I checked every corner.I thought that’s what love meant —To act. To do. To…